After all the active treatment, I was told that the chemotherapy didn’t “have the effect [they] had hoped it would.” The surgery on the other hand was considered a success and they believe they got all of the tumors. The radiation was more of a precautionary measure as my recurrence numbers are at about 50%. So, in the end, I went through all that and have a 50/50 chance of doing it all over again. Not the best odds, no.
So, after almost a years worth of treatment, I am often asked the question, “Are you better? Are you a ‘Survivor’?” In the face of this I often stammer and say…”Well, yes, but it’s complicated.” This is–by far–the best answer I’ve ever seen to a question that is too nuanced and depressing for me to answer on most days. In one fell swoop, it sums up what I either can’t or won’t say on any given day.
I look forward to enjoying long-standing membership in the 60 percent club.